You told me things would change… said things will get better… that you’d earn my trust back……but they were just lies.. and things are back to being painful.. if you’d choose your friends over me, just do it now… don’t prolong my suffering by telling me one thing and doing or making me feel another.. </3
This song has just made me very emotional today.. it has a lot of interpretations, and I think I could relate my situation, or at least what’s happening in my head that is similar to what the song is trying to portray.. I feel as if its about this two people in a relationship where they are in the part where they almost break up, and the guy seeks comfort in this female friend of his and they are actually in a position where the close friend may potentially ruin the relationship ………”said her name a thousand times” but she didn’t see it coming…
Ms.Understood
Today I shall start writing about how I feel again.. about how hard it is to love someone, whom you are no longer sure of… There’s this guy I’m with.. we have been together for more than half a year… It’s been one hell of a ride. We’ve been through good times, even though it seems like we’ve had more of those bad situations. I am in this position where my mind tells me I should let go, but my heart says no.. I still love him… I loved him so much.. I never really felt that way about anyone else. You could say he was my first true love. At first, like every relationship it went well.. till day by day… I notice things that either disappoint me or hurt me… one was the him not being over his ex yet… and for more than half of our relationship I swallowed that. and just this March he told me he was totally over her… It was like hearing violins play this beautiful melody that I simply could not get over… We have been through a lot of obstacles, including a whore for a best friend. For how many times, he made me feel that he chose someone else over me, which was really just painful. Then to know that for him, you’d never be beautiful, never be this thin, perfect woman… despite all that, accepting it all for you so loved him so much. Until that day came… He lied to me, and he said he did it because he didn’t want me to go, he was scared I’d leave… but it was the wrong move.. I do hate being lied to, there were some scenes i’d rather keep to myself… For how many days he tried to be sweet to me, and all he wanted to win my trust and affection back, and i wanted him to have it, but it was just something that needed time. Today, I was trying my best to give it to him, trying to be at least sweet and throw in some pick up lines..but then when I thought things wouldn’t go bad at least for today it did.. I can’t really describe the pain, for today I felt like he chose his online family over me. they haven’t really met, and we have, they were family via net, and I was his Girlfriend in a real life basis. I wouldn’t really want him to stay away from this so called family of his, but for him to defend them and just make me feel like he’d rather be with them than me, is painful.. I mean, why the hell does it feel like he’d rather be with them than me? because he’s happier there? they joke around more, what? isn’t it that the joy you feel when with your lover is different from when you are with your friends…. no argument there, but now why does it feel like he’d rather stay with them than with me…….. Its just really painful… I wanted to give him everything, I wanted to be perfect for him, but that will never happen, i will never be enough for him, as much as this pains me.. Why? for he makes me feel that way… Now all that I COULD do is find an outlet I could lay all of these in, so now i’m bloggin about it.. may people read this or not, I guess I could say this is one of the good things about having a blog, it gives you an outlet when you want something out of your system…
I want someone who won’t care
that I hate wearing shoes,
that I’m incapable of sitting still,
that I can’t grasp the concept of cleaning,
and I refuse to be ladylike.
Someone who realizes
that half the decisions I make I usually regret,
and I have the right to overreact at any given moment.
I want someone who knows how completely insane I am,
and he wouldn’t want me any other way. ♥.♥
(Source: myspace-fusion.com)
Bob Ong Quotes – The Famous Bobong Pinoy | Bob Ong Quotes about Love, Education and Life in General
Bob Ong Quotes na walang kamatayan! Bob Ong Love Quotes ba ang hanap mo? O anong Bob Ong Quotes in particular?Malamang isa kang pinoy na nainspired din at naadik sa pagbabasa…
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For the non-Pinoys this translates to “Is this going down?” “Yes it is”.
Bridge in Paris. You can hang locks on it with the name of you and your boyfriend /girlfriend / best friend and then throw away the key in the river. But when you break up, you can’t remove the lock, it stays there forever, just like a scar.
(Source: skyethekitty)
About me
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."
